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How to Pay Off Your Emotional Debt

In the previous lesson, you learned how to map your emotions in your body. For the final lesson, we're going to explore 'Emotional Debt' and how to pay it off using the practice of what Jonny calls 'Somatic Surfing'

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In the world of startups and building products, there is a concept known as “technical debt.” When computer code is scrappily thrown together so that the product can function. It’s done with the understanding that this debt will accumulate and eventually cause things to break if not addressed down the line.

Something similar can also happen with the human nervous system.

We are able to buffer intensely stressful experiences by repressing our emotions in the moment (sometimes subconsciously). We save “feeling our feelings” for a later point when we’re more equipped to deal with them. But if we never unpack what’s there, we can accumulate emotional debt that contributes to burnout and causes issues with our bodies, which is something that Dr. Gabor Maté discusses in his book The Myth of Normal and Bessel van der Kolk discusses in his book The Body Keeps the Score.

This isn’t a solved science, and not all cases of burnout or emotional reactivity are the result of accumulated stress reactions. But this “body keeps the score” model has gained a lot of traction in recent years (see the recent New York Magazine cover story). It has its critics, but in Jonny's work coaching entrepreneurs, he has witnessed firsthand how helpful this framework can be.

What is emotional debt?

Imagine the following scenario: you’re an employee who’s just been fired from your role (or, if you’re a founder, pretend your company went bankrupt overnight). Upon receiving the news, you’re likely to experience a surge of adrenaline and numbness—feeling disassociated or even dazed—right up until you arrive home and collapse on the couch. At this point, ideally the buffered emotions would surge to the surface to be experienced and processed.

This is what’s known in therapy circles as completing the “mobilization response,” and it’s an evolutionary process that we have hardwired into our nervous systems. Most mammals have a built-in mechanism for paying off this emotional debt.

To illustrate, witness this footage of an impala barely escaping from the jaws of a leopard.

Once it realizes that it’s safe, lying on the ground, the impala’s entire body begins to shake—discharging the energy and completing the mobilization response that was triggered by encountering a predator. (These observations come from the work of Dr. Peter Levine, a biophysics and psychology doctorate who wrote one of the seminal texts on trauma processing.)

Somewhere along the way, many of us human mammals have forgotten how to complete these physiological stress cycles. Research has shown that this accumulated emotional debt wreaks havoc on our nervous systems—often leaving us stuck in hyper-aroused (anxious) or disassociated (shut-down) states. Most of the scientific literature focuses on people with extreme cases of PTSD, but I’ve seen these patterns play out with clients from a range of backgrounds.

In the short term, there are times when building up emotional debt is essential to survival. It allowed our ancestors to get through intensely stressful experiences and only process them once safety had been reached.

However, if left unaddressed—especially in a world filled with ambient sources of stress—these buffered experiences accumulate and contribute to various health conditions or burnout.

In the neuroscience literature, this emotional debt is labeled “allostatic overload.” It typically presents with what’s known as a “fluctuating or heightened neuroendocrine response”—which is the technical way of saying adrenaline floods our system.

Allostatic overload has a range of downstream consequences, like significantly accelerated cellular aging, increased mortality, and chronic health conditions. This is from where phrases like “the body keeps the score” and “the issues are in the tissues” arise.

One recent study found that allostatic overload causes a 60% increase in energy expenditure. This is energy produced by the body that is essentially wasted, like pressing your foot on the gas pedal without first removing the emergency brake. This excess energy often manifests in your body as anxiety or agitation.

How to release emotional debt

In his work as a founder coach and facilitated breath re-patterning (FBR) practitioner, Jonny has guided hundreds of people through processing all manner of stored emotions—from reliving the fear of a near-death drowning, to fully grieving the loss of a loved one, to recovering from burnout.

Time and time again, he's seen his clients develop emotional mastery in a counterintuitive way: by releasing control and allowing their feelings to flow freely.

When we welcome emotions as they come and experience them without judgment, we can keep ourselves from building up “emotional debt” in the first place.

Present emotions can serve as a portal to the past, and processing a current situation sometimes releases stored "emotional debt" from previous experiences. When entrepreneurs he works with grasp this, they often find it freeing to witness internal sensations arising and passing without needing to intellectualize what it means or why they’re here.

Of course, it’s easier said than done, and it’s counterintuitive from traditional Western methods of processing emotions (namely, by intellectualizing them).

In the last lesson, we touched on one approach to “feeling your feelings” via a journaling prompt. Now, let’s go a little deeper on the subject via an embodiment technique called somatic surfing—a practice of connecting with physical sensations that arise with emotions.

The practice of somatic surfing

Step 1: Create embodied safety

Decide in advance where you’ll go to process vulnerable feelings when they come up.

Reflect on what “safe” conditions look like for you and create a plan. Perhaps you’ll draw a solitary bath with candles when you get home from work, or you’ll snuggle under a blanket with your partner. Maybe you’ll drive to a secluded park near the office, or straight to your sister’s house. The best conditions for genuine emotional expression will differ for everyone. You’ll need to turn inward for this practice, so if you prefer not to be alone, set expectations accordingly with your trusted person (e.g., warn them you won’t necessarily be talking).

Step 2: Get out of your head

Once you’ve established a safe setting, acknowledge to yourself that there is an emotion present. Then invite your awareness to shift away from any story or thoughts—although they will likely still be there—and move the spotlight of your attention to sensations in your body. Perhaps you feel queasiness in your lower belly, or tightness in the band around your diaphragm (below your rib cage). Maybe you sense tingling in your chest, neck, and throat area.

Focus on an area that feels like it has the most aliveness or contraction.

Step 3: Get curious

From here, give yourself explicit permission to soften into this place and feel what may be there. Invite curious awareness and try to breathe into the space. Explore the contours and texture of the sensation (e.g., rough, tight, numb, cold). If you can, visualize walking into the epicenter of this sensation.

Step 4: Play with what you find

It’s common for resistance to arise, so try to welcome everything that comes up.

You may ask yourself: what does this sensation want to express? If it feels overwhelming, bring the spotlight of your attention to a more neutral area—perhaps your feet on the ground or the palms of your hands.

From here, see if you can hold awareness of the neutral and intense areas simultaneously.

Step 5: Follow the changes

You will likely find that the sensation begins to shift or move. If it does then gently track or “surf” it, staying present with the emergent feelings. They may eventually release via a sigh, a yawn, tears, giggles, or a tangible sense of letting go. Allow it all to unfold. On the other side, it’s common to experience lightness, clarity, and relief.

Step 6: Decompress afterward

If you do experience release, aim to give yourself time afterward to drop into a state of relaxation—perhaps listening to an NSDR or relaxing music—since this is when your nervous system will be rewiring new neural pathways and integrating whatever surfaced.

Collaborate with a somatic practitioner

If you’ve built up a lot of emotional debt, it can be challenging to tap into your body’s experience on your own.

Jonny recommends working in person with a practitioner who is trained in a somatic modality. Having a guide helps for two primary reasons. First, they contribute to a sense of embodied safety that allows these incomplete reflexes to surface. Secondly, they’ll ensure you don’t bypass challenging emotions or get stuck in mental story loops.

That said, it can be challenging to find a skilled practitioner.

His recommendation would be to begin by searching for someone who is trained in either “somatic experiencing,” “Hakomi” or “conscious connected breathwork.” All three of these approaches utilize similar techniques for accessing the repository of emotional debt stored in the nervous system and releasing it.

There are many other modalities out there, but these tend to be the most reliably effective that Jonny has come across. In terms of choosing someone to work with, ideally, look for someone with a minimum of five years of experience around whom you feel comfortable and safe.

Jonny is also building an open-source project called Soma List. The intention is to crowdsource a directory of world-class practitioners trained in these emotionally-attuned modalities. Feel free to explore the directory. Alternatively, a more affordable or accessible option is to take an online course.

Whatever you do, you’ll be better equipped to navigate stressful experiences, process your emotions, and avoid burnout—at work and in the rest of your life.

Challenge #5 — Somatic Surfing

One of the core techniques Jonny covers in Nervous System Mastery is a something he calls Somatic Surfing — because, as you’ll discover, the skill required is like learning to surf the waves of our emotions where we are the surfer whose art lies in being in conversation with the wave as it breaks, paying exquisite attention in each moment and responding accordingly.

We start on a small beach break when we learn to surf. We learn the fundamentals and realize that no matter how much we fear wiping out – we always pop out the other side.

Jonny also restates that just as any surfer who wishes to stay in one piece will check for rip currents or rocks, we must first create the conditions for emotional safety before diving in.

This means — ensuring you won’t be interrupted and ground using any practices beforehand if necessary. Finding a quiet and dimly lit space — soft music in the background can also be supportive for accessing states and quieting the mind. As can choosing an instrumental/ambient song (few lyrics) that matches the emotional tone you’re experiencing.

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